The focus of my work is to communicate the often-misinterpreted impulse control disorder called Trichotillomania, whereby a person has the irresistible urge to pull hair out anywhere on the body. Through the use of scanography, sculpture and video i aim to produce the closest representation of my own personal experience. My most recent work shows the conflict between appreciation and frustration from what my hands are capable of and the behavioural stages of impulsivity while exploring visuals, sounds and feelings that can cause relaxation.
I associate latex gloves with the medical industry and i’ve used them to respond to my first experiences of reaching out for help, visiting doctors who inspected by hair after a few seconds only to remove their latex gloves and repeatedly tell me that pulling out my hair is a habit and when i grow, so will my hair. Before finally being diagnosed with Trichotillomania but still not provided with the help i needed.
The left and middle scans show me clinging on to the gloves in desperation whereas the right shows a glove blending into the wrist and appears to become a second skin that can’t be removed.
Student Allies in Anti-violence Education (SAAVE) is a community of Berklee students that contacted me to provide images to support a project that challenged what is considered a healthy relationship during sexual assault awareness week. My scans caught their attention because hands can appear gender neutral and relate to a wider audience.
The Shore Scene Soundtrack is based on a simple idea where Erek runs his hands over a carpet to imitate the sound of the seaside based on the recording in his memory, the same carpet is used in an exhibition whereby the viewers are invited to touch the carpet for to experience it for themselves. He also displays a book with information and instructions on how to achieve certain sounds.
To record subtle sounds, i used a microphone that can record sounds from different areas of the room to imitate the way ears hear sound. This has been successful with quieter sounds however, bubble wrap can cause sharp popping sounds and will need to order a foam cover to soften the sounds if i am going to incorporate this into my work.
In this image by Vader Stein, the material almost acts as a second skin and where the material stretches seems to create tension. I find it interesting that the parts of the body that aren’t covered are known to be the most expressive. The hand positions seem to be contradicting each other, one in despair and one providing support. The piece has influenced me to explore materials that could mimic a second skin and to use conflicting hand gestures in my own artwork.