The focus of my work is to explore the often-misinterpreted impulse control disorder called Trichotillomania, whereby a person has the irresistible urge to pull hair out anywhere on the body. Through the use of scanography, sculpture and video I aim to produce the closest representation of my own personal experience, while at the same time expressing emotions that have more general currency with any audience. My most recent work shows the conflict between appreciation and frustration from what my hands are capable of and the behavioural stages of impulsivity while exploring visuals, sounds and feelings that can cause relaxation.
For some reason, probably due to accidentally choosing the wrong scanner settings, a few of the images are of lower quality in comparison to the others. This wasn’t noticeable until the images were blown up to A2 and printed for the show. With limited time left, i quickly decided to erase the large smudges and to sharpen the detail before reprinting. However, now the little specs of dust and hair are more prominent and i’ll have to make a decision as to whether to have a low quality image, or an image that looks like it needs a dusting. To some extent the aesthetic flaws of using a scanner work to my advantage, there is only so much i can do to avoid my hair from appearing on scanner because it’s usually clinging onto my clothing throughout the day.
The instillation of the monumental sculpture for the 2017 Venice Biennale has recently been finished. The piece consists of two giant hands stretched out from the water in order to support the hotel. It’s a visual statement against climate change and the rising sea levels that effect the city. It has influenced me to revisit making 3D forms of my hands after i’ve finished my degree, using a material other than plaster and clay. I would like to explore the scale of my work like i have done with the prints. I’m disappointed that i will not be attending this years Biennale because i’d love to see this piece of work in person.
I associate latex gloves with the medical industry and i’ve used them to respond to my first experiences of reaching out for help, visiting doctors who inspected by hair after a few seconds only to remove their latex gloves and repeatedly tell me that pulling out my hair is a habit and when i grow, so will my hair. Before finally being diagnosed with Trichotillomania but still not provided with the help i needed.
The left and middle scans show me clinging on to the gloves in desperation whereas the right shows a glove blending into the wrist and appears to become a second skin that can’t be removed.
Popping bubble wrap is widely known to be satisfying and can directly relate to the sounds and sensations from pulling out strands of hair. The scan on the right is in response to an earlier scan that was made to show the movements of my hands.
The Shore Scene Soundtrack is based on a simple idea where Erek runs his hands over a carpet to imitate the sound of the seaside based on the recording in his memory, the same carpet is used in an exhibition whereby the viewers are invited to touch the carpet for to experience it for themselves. He also displays a book with information and instructions on how to achieve certain sounds.
To record subtle sounds, i used a microphone that can record sounds from different areas of the room to imitate the way ears hear sound. This has been successful with quieter sounds however, bubble wrap can cause sharp popping sounds and will need to order a foam cover to soften the sounds if i am going to incorporate this into my work.